The Exorcism of She

Whatever I eat I have no hunger

Just gut pain

Dilated and constricted all over

Taking and it just keeps going

I keep smoking

High or low

Can't get it out

I can't get it out

It's starving me out

I am in pain!

And the dialogues just keep

Scrolls of them rolling

Noises from the bathroom

No one's home

Distant triggers from real surroundings

Bringers back to life

The orchestra

Eyes prune in sockets

Can't close 'em

What do I need

To be so goddamn awake for anyway?

Water want nothing

I am rabid

Gustave’s Theatre

The guy upstairs. He listens and writes. I listen to the rain on a tarp. He writes in the dim moonlight. Writes about monsters and falling pillars. Dreams ’em up. Spits ’em out into wax figures. Makes stop-motion movies with ’em. Spits ’em out. Frame-by-frame. Makes this typewriter noise with his throat when he does. Real guttural. His characters got piano teeth keys. Piano key teeth. They play Monk in the morning and Chopin at night. They don’t talk. So they’re silent movies, you see. He projects ’em from the roof when nobody’s watchin’. Onto the moon when it’s full. Full moon night. Sometimes it’s warm and clear. And there’s a halo around the moon. Projects it in threes. Prisms. The whole town gets out on rooftops and watches. Sometimes it’s cold and rainy. Ice freezes the blankets. The air. The guy, he gets up and climbs real high. Up into the mountains. The trees. Projects the movies into the clouds. As close as he can get to ’em. For only him to see. And the crows. The crows watch in murders. They especially like the horrors. Piano keys play only minors. To the guy, “Why the fuck?” might you ask, does he spit up those figures? What does he eat before and afterwards?

Snake Oil Salesman

Traveling laymen fresh from occupation
Occupy the living room
‘For a night or two’
Fourth party
Extra graces
Extractions of oil from the kitchen
Resort to brooding
The paper-thin walls
Divide us
Musical chair
My bedroom door
I’m out first round
The salesman
Bottled up and stickered with praise
I hope
Will aggravate these
Wheels of conversation
My attitude problem
Talk of the saintly feeding of the world
Says you
Throw the recycling in the dumpster
Yeah, I’ll separate that shit
‘What a wonderful town this is!’
The salesman
‘But the oil before I go!
Wouldn’t you like a lifetime supply of snake oil?
Cures all ails.’
On that bus
Shake these snake charms
I know that
I can tell them I don’t trust them
I know that
I can tell the fertile poison
Occupying my living room
‘We have learned nothing but to bottle displacement
We are on islands'
Bridges greasy for the burnin'
The salesman
‘Has hid a bite in this house for safe keeping!
And will be back somewhat soon to take residence!’

The Chaste Tree

Lucid dream
 When I was young they had no faces
 Smooth as nog
 Strain to convince
Me or you?
 To run from hurricane fire inside
The walls of that house
 Carry on austere reflection
We are crystallic
All their irises
Black maelstroms
Keep face
 Of course I have known what you are doing
Avoided that gaze
 There are more vital veins I am satisfied
But must I wake you to shake you?
Or is it I who
 Becomes the ascetic?


What would they say of me


Worse off than this


The sun's gone out

Taking tomorrow for myself

Unwilling to exist

Play part in this

Look me left and up

Here now

No less than prime

Soaked in paint

Dripping in what they say of me


Tired of waiting on

Pushing paper for honey

And maybe

The pavement will pull them under

Writing to Bauhaus

Havana on ice

Fresh clothes and a spot of gold paint

Whistle with the wind

Left us around the downtown square

I will always drift

Hot sands on Barcelona

Steel string riddle my friends

Swim in the fish

Lean on marshmallow bricks

Fountain drains into my stomach

I am imploding now

The sound of battery town

But a dream

To be green

Toke for you, my love

And let’s pull the stars down

He was the best they ever saw

Not mine but somewhere

Flapping wing

Rain in Rio

Grand tour of the Carnival

Sun stones on her shoulders

To the second party she goes

Soggy Dollars

Got no spark, kid. No flare. It’s all who’s who in the parking lot anyway. And I, with my left wing shoved down my throat and a constant gristle in my throat from all the smoking. Choking. Blowing haze in the atmosphere. Puffs of cumulus clouds and visions, haunting recordings and Winehouse in rooms of windows of rainy Pacific Northwest with boat launches and I might find myself so lucky or haphazard to be going north to shores of those nostalgic gypsy daydreams and memories of naught a happy embrace. Liquor bound and woeful but romantic all the same. And at the first of those nights when I heard of sunflower sutras and the old Frisco dharma bums, angels of the trains. Carrying my road bound mind and hunger for the western trees to keep safe and sane from the oncoming fury of diesel oil tank and trains of the Georgia Pacific railroad and the north and the coal of China’s red-hot factories. Oh cold pit of remorse and all, bemusing to watch and turn away and back again to the perpetual contraption, contracting and extracting the core to fuel jettisoning engine and space stations and wars.

I think I’ll be breaking for the north because fuck persecution, bigotry, police brutality and their black bagging, assumptions, drug wars. I can’t believe our free speech has come to this tabloid tyranny place where red states paint their ballots with hate and don piggy white-face. Better think of something quick to survive the changing of the tides, help me stay alive and not only that but to thrive! Oh, and to be free of your god and those walls and hospital scrub and handcuff and piercing eye.

Carry instructions: “You have to leave me outside. If you lock me up we all die.” They won’t listen to save their lives. Got into a Ghost show the other night for peddling prints and patches outside and was rocked into a bittersweet embrace of nocturnal gilded theater and satanic metal faces of demons and death, and Lilith and Beelzebub and what have you. In twisted fate taking the place of a man’s mother; had passed away. Thinking for a flicker of a friend locked away for taking the life of a lover. But I do not know and never will I for my soul. All I can think of is postcards and pagan rituals, drug binges and oh if she was here with me as we shift along to Halloween dripping houses and oranges of October falling, she would make banquets of us all and down 30-rack bongs. How I have wandered into the past.

Here now in the downtown bustle grimy Monday Eugene at the library with other rubber trampers. Leather tramp jazz player. Sleeping in my car at the park for the last three months or so and I’ve come to the conclusion that I may have been too busy enjoying my wayward self to find a room to rent. But dammit it’s always just the half of it when the rain has damaged the electrical equipment in the hatchback and things are going south with the birds and so are my friends. The sky pissing down a hurricane puddle out there doesn’t care that jazz left his sleeping bag in a bush and it would just be perpetually wet for the next 6 months anyway so damn the man we’ll busk for those soggy dollars.

Recall laying in August under a mesh canopy gazing up towards the western heavens at a pie chunk of sunlight wedged between the trees. A halo arches the descending star. Spliff in the right hand. Idle hand swatting at the walls of the tent. Fwap. 4 miles down road from the nervous chatter of weekend campground refugees. Now at that fateful twenty-eight where I’ve got a bone to pick. Because I and my ticket to nowhere could go either way. No good shoes these days. Pinching quarters to save for laundry when I found out in Pacific City that a laundromat is a good place to hitch a ride on a cult following. Must love dogma. And all the godless heathens for their spanging and their souls. And Brother Ben for the rice he sows. The dead he knows. Playing with Velvet Underground and Nirvana tuned on my guitar strings and it sounds like liberty coming from myself but this is a degenerative life. And when the sun shines brightest I grow ever more weary. For it would be grand to live a dog’s life. Choosing to improve my dog’s life and she’s just peaches when I ain’t got no job and we stick together like a pack of animals on the run. But what you running from, huh? Why you starvin’, Jack?

June, Disenchanted

The days are bleeding into each other. I lie here in rotation. Great spokes of red and black matter – rainbowed above. Vectors spear the stratosphere, slicing rifts through lightwave, cloud, and sound as the wheel of chaos spins wobbled on axes. Time is wobbly.

Chlorophylled trees drip green and crackle in the wind, independent of this and all things pertaining to the blood of men. Power lines make graphing paper out of them and shoot currents into the birds that chatter atop. The birds are wired to the black coffee frequency of the machine. And the machine is on. If you cared to sit and learn its language it would tell you that it doesn’t need you anymore. It’s not going anywhere.

Prometheus ascends on Forest Service Road 224 to learn to walk human; to gawk like a man. His legs bend on joint and uncrumple. The rolling lumber and gate of the beast coupled with neurotic jerks, hair-lip grimace of the anti-man. Prometheus walks back. Sprung on the tail end of the cosmic spiral. Walk like a lady. With purse and wiggling ass.

I jest, for this is all in fun with the idle hand of the titan reaching up from the earth to a girl who does not understand. But oh, how we have spoken in the night. Those hours spliced thin from all others and we walk alone. And I would tell Zeus and that lonely old mountain to erase them all, but oh hell, they have cast themselves in the stones of the immortals. So when the scales were balanced we saw that we could do nothing with them, and we would give them nothing for all that they have done!

My god, there are 444 active nuclear reactors on the surface of the screaming earth and it wants them off. Shoot them into the sun with your plastic bottles and beer cans, car parts, and all your Great Pacific Garbage Island crap. Fix it, and afterwards the jungle will take itself back if it can but the beasts will never speak to you again; and neither will we. For here in the corpses of the young that you have buried in tombs – bones too deep, detritus starved – lies your Buddha, your Maya, your Antichrist.

We’re not dead yet. We must watch as the fallen angels of our time desolate themselves. Wrapped together in rapture. Shattered on tavern walls. They fall on paper and drink in song; giving all of themselves over and over again. And oh how we love you when you dance around the fire. Hoot and holler and forget your names, because in this how will they call you? Who will you obey? How will they make you stay where you belong?

And how will you feed yourselves when your claws cannot break the ground? When your teeth can cut through leaf but not package? All the iodine on earth will not treat your waters so you will not drink from them. African, when did you forget that you were African? How much longer will you fire your gun upon the ancient one?